To walk in integrity outside of moral failure has some great benefits to it. I am not sure if you have ever thought about the consequences of having an affair, but here are a few to meditate on:
- Working to rebuild trust and an uninhibited marriage of oneness once again (spiritually, sexually, emotionally)
- Embarrassing family, losing their respect and trust
- Having to walk away from a job or ministry position
- Possibly having to relocate
- Possibly facing newspaper articles, publicly printed communication and social media about personal failure
- Facing rumors, gossip and lies
- Having to face untold and far-reaching negative consequences either based on truth and fact or hearsay
- Maybe having to face the law or possible law suits
- Losing or forfeiting many friendships and local church relationships
- Living with wounds and scars
- Feeling as though everyone is watching you
- Suffering from overwhelming thoughts of failure
- Continually reliving the past and coming up with regret and loss
- Living with continual condemnation
- Struggling to sleep at night
- Waking up in the morning and wondering how to look forward to a new day
- Having to be concerned about who one may face or encounter throughout the day
- Suffering the loss of vision
- Having to go through biblical discipline and a restoration process
- Being unable to look at one’s family and all others in the eye
- Being unable to look at oneself in the mirror without feeling condemnation and feeling like a failure
- Suffering from an unclear conscience; walking through life feeling a cloud over oneself
- Feeling the loss of ones peace and joy
- Suffering through the loss and grief of broken relationship with God
- Living with the deep hurt and pain you caused the one with whom you vowed a promise of fidelity
I forgive you – three very powerful, but very difficult words to speak. Perhaps even more difficult are the words, “Please forgive me.” Why does it take so long to work up the courage, humble ourselves and put away our pride? Jesus offered this medicine while on the earth when He shared that if we forgive, we will be forgiven. Paul the apostle stated it so succinctly when he wrote it this way, “Forgive as the Lord forgave you.” Nicky Gumbel, the Alpha course 
teacher, once said that the first one to apologize is the bravest one.
My wife, Mary, and I were on a plane traveling to the Midwest and it was the dead of winter. We were conducting our first weekend marriage seminar in this frozen, sub-zero temperature state. We jumped off the plane and onto the small airport tarmac to be greeted by the coldest, howling wind we’ve ever felt. Our eyes began to water and our noses started to run. It was cold.
When we say, “I do” we are never quite sure of what’s ahead. Thinking back over the many couples I have counseled, I can only begin to tell you the various scenarios that those couples faced so unexpectedly. For example, I can recall the early passing of a life mate, failure of a business, the loss of a three-year-old child, affairs, depression and other mental illnesses, a life altering accident or illness, addictions, extreme financial mismanagement, inability to become pregnant, just to name a few. To so many of these couples it felt completely overwhelming and I am sad to say that not all of the couples survived the tragedies.
Regardless of where you are in your marriage, there is help and there is hope. If God is who He says He is, then there is not a marriage scenario that He cannot work with. If He could forgive the woman brought to Him who had committed adultery and had obviously failed her marriage, He can forgive you and rebuild your relationship.
Mary was a “spender” and I was a “tight wad.” At least those were our thoughts and to be honest, sometimes our spoken words. If Mary had cash, there was something to purchase. If there was money left over at the end of the month, I thought it was there for only one reason, to save. This is how we operated for years into marriage until one day we discovered a morsel of revelation.
Early on in our marriage our biggest struggle was about money. Since that time, we have learned this topic is a struggle for most couples. Not to assume that it is only a struggle when there are insufficient funds, but, as we discovered, when there are sufficient funds as well. We went on to ascertain that the differences had to do with two areas. Those two areas were financial values and trust. In other words, we did not have the same beliefs when it came to spending and saving and those differences led to not fully trusting each other. This blog entry is dedicated more to finding those roots versus practical budgeting tips. So, here are some root issues to consider when it comes to financial values and trust:
I love marriage, being married – my marriage. It is unthinkable to be writing that Mary and I are soon married for 41 years and more in love. It is amazing to be at this place, such a good place. I love “old love.” We’re not as fast as we used to be and neither are we as pain-free, but seriously, love that grows old with someone…there’s nothing like it. At this end of the spectrum, I have something to share about marriage and here are a few of those things:
Jesus suffered, as did many men and women of history. It was/is our Lord’s belief that something would be built in us as we would realize…For our present troubles are quite small and won’t last very long. Yet they produce for us an immeasurably great glory that will last forever! (II Corinthians 4:17)
Author Gary Thomas once proposed this scenario, “You may opt for a divorce, but you cannot ever engage in sex again with anyone else for the rest of your life.” The obvious question that would follow would be just how many couples would actually divorce? Perhaps some women, but I am guessing very few men. I remember studying divorce and remarriage from every angle for our book, Called Together. We wanted to write what was biblically correct, while at the same time not provoke any unnecessary pain in those who have been through such devastation.
Steve Prokopchak 